when EMO talk bout LOVE

Spongebob: What do you usually do when I’m gone? | Patrick: Wait for you to come back.

me,,as the PATRICK,,i'll wait for you... 

my heart,,

i hope now that i took it out,,

u'll keep it

cuz i don't have a clue how to put it back..

and if u don't want it just becuz it's full of blood,,

don't worry,

i'll wash it off and put a ribbon around it..

I LOVE YOU!

 

YOU

♥♥♥

yes,,YOU ARE MY ONLY ......

♥♥♥

some pics taken on the train

seorang pengemis cacat

anak-anak jalanan

we sing to eat...

penjual minuman

i made it 'black and white' to make it looks more emotional,,

Rest In Peace ,,'o9o6o9'

Cinta sesungguhnya tidak bersifat fisik atau romantisme belaka .
Cinta sejati adalah menerima apa adanya yang terjadi saat ini,yang sudah terjadi,yang akan terjadi dan yang tidak akan pernah terjadi .
Orang yang paling berbahagia tidaklah harus memiliki segala sesuatu yang terbaik,mereka hanya berbuat yang terbaik dengan apa yang mereka miliki .
Sepertiku yang akan selalu memberikan yang terbaik agar kamu tau keberadaanku saat aku ada ,dan merasa kehilangan ketika aku hilang .

Tak peduli jika memang kau tak pernah mengingatku,selama aku masih mengenalimu,aku akan tetap mengasihi dan menyayangimu.....

curhat (lagi)

Tiba2 tadi malem keinget lagi sama mamah dan ayah,,sedih banget rasanya ternyata di umur gue yang baru 16 tahun aja gue udah sukses bikin mereka kecewa,,gara2 UI,,iya,,gue gak masuk..padahal temen SMP gue si XXXX yang dulunya kelas 3 satu kelas dan saingan ma gue aja bisa masuk UI,,(selama kelas 3,,dia juara 2,,gue 3,,tapi UNnya B.Inggris gue yang paralel pertama),,kadang masih suka bengong aja,,kok gue bego banget ya,,mpe detik ini masih belom dapet PTN (dapet PTS kedokteran,,tapi Lampung,,aje gilee -_-"),, inget banget mamah ayah ngoceh berjam2 gara2 kebodohan gue,,gue juga heran,,si XXXX aja mpe kelas 3 SMA masih bisa menonjol ,,kok gue nggak ya?tapi emang sih gue orangnya gak punya ambisi untuk jadi seseorang yang terkenal apalagi di kalangan guru,,dulu juga SMP di kenal guru gara2 emang dari kelas 1 alhamdulillah juara terus,,(bukannya sombong,,emang gitu) tapi semenjak SMA ,,gue turun banget,,apalagi daya ingat ,,mungkin gara2 pas lagi jaman libur lulusan gue sempet jatoh dari motor keadaan ngebut dan helm copot,,kepala belakang bentur ke aspal dan amnesia 2hari,,bener2 amnesia sampe mamah dan pacar gue nangis ngeliat gue gak tau apa2 cuma diem ( kata mereka setelah akhirnya gue gak permanent amnesianya ),,ahh shit banget kalo emang gara2 itu gue jadi dongo kaya gini..! eh tapi waktu terakhir test IQ 137,,tertinggi kedua di kelas (yang pertama 138),,trus TOEFL 467,,masih lumayan lah,,tapi kok gak pernah juara ?? mentok2 nya rangking 13,,sedih banget rasanya liat mamah tiap ambil rapot gak bisa bangga bangga lagi,,dari 3 besar jadi 15 besar,,gila gak ?? jangankan mamah,,gue aja pengen nangis terus ( sempet nangis kejer di kelas waktu kelas 1 SMA,,gara2 remid biologi,,haha,,labil banget waktu itu mungkin shock kali ya ),,mungkin salah juga guru SD dulu pernah ngikutin gue kelas aksel,,dari kelas 3 langsung ke 5,,jadi kan gue telat dikit gapapa(alibi banget,xixi).. aahh,,masih BT banget,,puyeng rasanya nih kepala,,hari gini disaat temen2 gue pada liburan,,verifikasi PTN/PTS,,dll,,eh gue malah diangkut kerumah di Serpong buat les private DAILY alias TIAP HARI,,gak pake ampun lah si Ayah teh,,emang wajar aja lah,,ortu mah apa waeh yang penting anak berhasil,,maluuu pisan rasanya sama Ayah ma Mamah,,Ayah dulu waktu kecil,mau sekolah aja usaha jual donat sama kopi tiap subuh,,sampe akhirnya dapet beasiswa super semar langsung dari Presiden Suharto,,COOL! sedangkan Mamah,,lulusan dari UI,,aaarggghh,T_T,, begooo... ampun ya Ayah,,Mamah,,Dini belom bisa banggain kalian,,tapi Dini bakal terus usaha kok,,apapun Dini turutin..

Ya Allah,,semoga memang ada jalan lain untuk saya,,semoga saya masih bisa buat mereka bangga,,Amin....

17.05.2010 (gak tau judulnya apa)

memiskinkan diri,,huhu,,ceritanya begini.....

pagi2 jam 9 aunty ani telpon,,disaat gue lg molor mimpi jadi penyanyi dangdut (absurd banged mimpinya,,asli!),, aunty bilang mau ngejemput gue buat jalan2,,gue si jawab iya iya aja,,padahal molor lagi,,(xixi~) jam 11 nyampe dah tu si aunty di rumah,,tapi berhubung gue belom siap,,ya udah nunggu deh,,jam 1 baru capcuz ke taman jajan BSD jalan kaki,,makan siank,abis itu naik angkot ke stasiun rawa buntu berentinya di stasiun tanah abang,,mampir deh kerumah aunty di jati baru,,abis itu cabut ke Blok A tenabang,,muterrrrrr,,hasrat memiskinkan diri pun datang menggebu2,,pertama beli kemeja 3 biji,,harga grosir,,itung2 mipil buat ntar kuliah kan pakenya kemeja tuh (gaya beneeerrr,,dapet kampus aj belom -___-) abis itu muter lagi,,beli tas deh,,ransel wallaby,,awalnya minta 250rebu,,pas di tawar tawar,,jadi deh 160,,mayan,,hihi..abis itu jalan lagi tu nyari sepatu,,paling susah nyari sepatu,,isinya sendal2 cewek semua,,high heels dan kawan2,,akhirnya ada tuh yang gua suka,,crocs,,beli deh,,pertama 275rebuu,dtawar jadi 250,,lu mayan ,,dari pda lu manyun (apaaa deh??)..udah jam setengah 5,,Blok A mau tutup,,pulang,,pulang,,,

abis nyampe rumah aunty,,langsung siap2 lagi gua balik ke BSD,,naik kereta sendirian,,weeerrr~ rada takut si,,takut salah berenti gue,,xixi,,tapi alhamdulillah nyampe juga di rumah,,hehe..abis mandi,,dll,,onlen deh,,terus ada notif si icha nge-tag foto chibi pesenan gue,,wew,,bagus,,

ah udah ah,,cukup sekian dan terimakasih,,intinya duit saya habis,, :((
BYE!

4th day,,---> FINISH!

today the job is completed ,, thank God,,I 'wandered' for 4 days.. salary already paid 60%,,

depart at 8 this morning to take photos of teachers one by one,,running as a reporter chasing the news,, hihi

wew,,i can freely slosh the staffroom, myhair is already very red,but noone scold me,,, it was cool,,HOLY me..! huhu 

The most uncomfortable part was when the teachers started asking if I've received in college?,,o-mai-gat,, can only say "not yet accepted everywhere"but fortunately there are also friends who have not accepted everywhere like me, xixithe funny thing is when the teachers finished in the photo,they must ask

"there is no flash??"  

"do u really take my photo or not?"  

"so quick ??" 

"how do i look? thinner already?? " 

hahaha,, LOL, but I'm definitely going to miss anything in this school : (I promise that i will often visit this school despite being in college, as the request of my younger that told me they will miss me,, xuxu,,i have to finish my writing, I'll register SNMPTN first,, wish I could go well, so i won't shy when somebody asked me.

Bye!

Last Time - Secondhand Serenade

I'm stuck with writing songs
Just to forget
What they really were about
And these words are bringing me so deeply insane
That I don't think I can take my way out

I couldn't breathe through it
Like I need to and the words don't mean a thing

So I'll sing this song to you
For the last time
And my heart is torn in two
Thinking of days spent without you
And there is nothing left to prove

I'm counting all the things I could have done
To make you see
That I wanted us to be what I go to sleep and dream of
I want you to know that I'd die for you
I'd die for you

I couldn't breathe through it
Like I need to and the words don't mean a thing

So I'll sing this song to you
For the last time
And my heart is torn in two
Thinking of the days spent without you
And there's nothing left to prove

And if you are alone
Make sure you're not lonely
Cuz if you are, I blame myself
For never being home
I know I'm not the only one
Who will treat you like they should
What you deserve

I'm stuck with writing songs
Just to forget

So I'll sing this song to you
For the last time
And my heart is torn in two
Thinking of the days spent without you
And there's nothing left to prove

Last Time - Secondhand Serenade Video

holy-fakkin-job,yea!

tanggal berapa ni,tanggal berapa?ha?8?oke,,keramat ni hari!
my first big job(uhuh?),,motret ratusan orang,mulai!

Jam 5.30
Danar telpon,ngebangunin suruh mandi trus berangkat,waddeeeeffaaaggg?! biasanya bangun jam 10an,tiba2 jam segitu di bangunin,telpon,mana hang-phone dikuping,kebayang geter2 saat gue lagi asik mangap menikmati pulau kapuk.hell-yea!
Jam 6.30
Berangkat naik motor,pake kaos item,kemeja biru,jeans item,kacamata,nametag.wew,asoy banget gak gue,,eksis abbeeees!
Jam 07.00
Sampe di danar,berangkat ke aula sekolah,anak IPA 5 udah kumpul disana,let's go!
Jam 08.30
Sampe lokasi. Gue sukses mangap geleng2 kepala,anjaaa!jauh mampus cuma gini doank ni tempat?ah elah tega banget
Jam 08.30-10.00
Jepret2!Selesai~ makan dulu bakso ama jus di jalan,,mayan sarapan...
Jam 11.00
Di aula lagi,,PSIS 1,kelas danar,cabut ke kabupaten,dapet ijin take di pendopo,jepret jepret .selesai
Jam 13.00
Capcus ke aula lagi,giliran PSIS 3 ternyata take di hutan,oh mai!belantara~ fakkin hot! Jeprat jeprut,bubar! Ni kelas palg lelet,karena pada rewel,,hedeeeeh
Jam 15.00
Yeha,last class,PSIS 2,ngaret ret ret mpe hmpr jam 4 baru mulai jepret,lokasi stasiun,asli gue abis ide,cape gila,banget,sangat,amat,sekali,luar biasa pegal gal gal,hoha banget pokoknya..
Jam 17.20 (kalo gak salah)
Balik rumah,ketemu mamah sayang,,hmm,mandi,makan,nonton tv..
Yehahoha,selesai sudah kerjaan hrrhrrggwlekekok gue..

Happy holy-fakkin-saturdaynight!!

Nice sleep,hoha~

Me vs Mom

kali ini gua sama nyokap,,ngomongin pacar,random banget lagi ngomongin adek gue,eh tiba2 mamah ngomongin mantannya dan nyambung ke mantan gue .

mamah : "mantan2 mamah dulu kalo ngapel pasti rapih,adek kamu tuh,ngapel pake sendal jepit,malu2in aja"
gue: "rapihan mana sama mantan dini yang kesayangan mamah?"
mamah: "ya..mantan kamu banget lah teh,baru pernah liat anak mamah di apelin cowo pake kacamata,jas item,sepatu pantofel,rapih wangi,kaya mau ngelamar"
gue: "ahaha,,namanya juga mau ke ulang tahun,lucu banget ya"
mamah: "aduh kangen si mantu"
gue: " ah udah,udah ah!ngapain juga ngomongin pacar orang"
mamah: "yeeee,salah sendiri mutusin"
gue: " zzz ..(balik badan,ngelamun)

anjaaaaaaa,,obrolan yang gak enak banget,paling males ma topik pembicaraan model gitu -_____-"

Broken Pop - SEREMPET GUDAL

Iseng lagi nih,lagi2 gua ngulik lirik band lokal,sekarang dari Semarang,namanya unik,SEREMPET GUDAL,masih gak ngerti maksudnya apa,tapi ni band asli keren banget,konyol,grhrhrr~ sempet nyari2 lirik dari ni band,but i found nothin so I intend to find the lyric and post it on my blog . Check it out!




(I need somebody right now)

I'm alone
Now i'm very lonely
I'm alone


Ibuku sering bawa brondong baru
Dan ayah kini bersama si gadis SMA
Disini diriku selalu sendiri
Rindu belai kasih sayang
Yang tlah lama hilang
Lalu aku harus bagaimana?
Harus bagaimana?
Hadapi keluargaku
Ayah ibu semua sama saja tak sayang padaku
Prsetan

Ibu maafkanlah aku
Ayah lupakan diriku
Ku tak lagi betah dirumah

Asy-ky band - lirik

lagi buka-buka FB eh dapet message dari grup ASK-KY band,,grup lokal pemalang ,,waktu itu pernah manggung di perpisahan sekolah trus sempet denger lagunya,,yang ini....

ASY-KY band - Nikmatilah Cintaku

Hidup tanpamu terasa berat

Tanpa ada kasih sayangmu,cintamu,,

Pergi tanpamu terasa gundah 

Sendiri disini...

Berdua denganmu terasa indah

Sungguh kurasakan begitu berbeda

Kehilanganmu aku tak mau

Sungguh menyiksa

Nikmatilah cintaku sepenuh hatimu

Berikanlah cintamu setulus jiwamu

Kuberharap dirimu selalu mencinta

Namun kusadari kau tak pernah lagi,,,

Cinta.......

asik sih lumayan,,pas aja sama yang lagi gua rasain,,hmmm....

june 9th - 2009

its true that we don't know what we've got until it's gone,
but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it's arrives,,
we deserve nothing but the best to be remembered as the nicest couple.
-diretta-

Cupu vs Acakadut

Hmmm,judulnya absurd banget,,sebenernya yang mau gua bahas disini masalah kepribadian orang,,gua masih rada gimana gitu ya,rada risih sebenernya jadi cewe berandal,ngumpul ma cowo,acak2an,,cuek,dll,,takut dibilang gimana2 juga,,padahal gua cuma ngerasa nyaman sama aturan yang gitu,,gak enak aja gitu jadi cewek feminin,,semua ribet,,salah gak sih? Tapi asli gua normal,masih cewek lah,kromosom masih normal,gak kelebihan,haha (apa banget deh) . Masalahnya biasanya cewe cupu tuh pasti keliatannya lebih 'baik-baik',,gak semua juga kali,dan gak semua cewe acakadut kaya gua (maen ma cowo,anak motor,suka panas2an,kuku item,eyeshadow item,tatto temporary pake hena -____-",dll) itu cewek 'gak bener' ,gak setuju aja gua ama pandangan sempit orang yang kaya gitu,gua gitu karena tomboy,emang gak ribet,dan u know what,kebanyakan cewek zodiak cancer pasti tomboy (kata zodiak,xixi) . yang penting gua masih punya batasan,maen ma cowo lebih asik karena mereka lebih ngejaga gua dan gak ada rasa saingan,,solid tinggi juga,gak kaya cewek,ribet! (eh gua juga cewek dink ya,ahaha) tapi gak secentil cewek2 'ribet' . ow ya,gua mau protes,kenapa cewek cupu harus selalu dinilai lebih baik??! Banyak juga cewe cupu tapi hatinya lebih bejat,,gak cuma ngomong kok gue,punya bukti,,no need to mention the name lah ya,yang pasti gua gak setuju aja cewek tomboy jadi didiskriminasi (ceilah bahasa gue -___-) pokoknya gitu deh,intinya,jangan anggep cewek acakadut,modalmadul,reworewo itu cewek 'gak baik' . Ok? No offense..twankya!

die-ry I

Maybe i should hate u,yea i have to..
Cuz i'm tired of being ignored .
I dunno who had made u change .
U were good thought we were not in a relationship .
But now,its all done,i dont kno what to say..
Really tired,,i wanna forget u,,but why i cant do that?
My intentions r good for u,, but why u still cant believe and never care what im talking about ?
O-kay,i think it's enough,,i better make my way out
This is my last time to do this FAKKin thing..
Twankya!

trip to Semarang

May 1,,

I went to semarang, departed up by Danar's Car, we leave at 7 am and got there about 10
the first place we visited was the arena where the freestyle competition helda lot of motorcycle clubs gathered, and there is one guy that I like,, haha,, he long-haired, I love his hair! LOL,, 
okay,, there we were watching the event,, I also met a crew from the magazine otospeed, I'll be eager to work there,, heheOwh yea, I met a brother of my ex-boyfriend,, where are ya brother? hahame with friends are there until half past five and after that we back to the rented-house of Jet-Zcrew,,
and hell-yes, my camera battery runs out and I almost cry, but eventually I contacted the stock camera for ordering new battery,, 275 000 rupiah,, arrgghh,, my money runs out,, whwhwafter maghrib,me and my friends out of the house again, go for a walk, they go to Hugo's Cafe but I have to Wonderia because i wanna watching serempet gudal, shaggy-dog and kotak, Wew,, hectic,, so fun to take lot of pictures of the stage, it's very difficult but practice makes perfect,, hmm 11 o'clock already, I was pickup by my friends, we back to rented-house and ready to sleep,, 7am the next day we went to Pemalang,, hmm,, tiring days but very enjoyable,, \ m /

Paramore's Biography

Paramore is an American rock band that was formed in Franklin, Tennessee, United States in 2003. The band consists of Hayley Williams (lead vocals/keyboard), Josh Farro (lead guitar/backing vocals), Jeremy Davis (bass guitar), Taylor York (rhythm guitar), and Zac Farro (drums). The band have released three studio albums in total; All We Know Is Falling (2005), RIOT! (2007) and brand new eyes (2009).

In 2002, at the age of 13, vocalist Hayley Williams moved to Franklin, Tennessee, where she met brothers Josh and Zac Farro while attending private school. Prior to forming Paramore, Williams and bassist Jeremy Davis took part in a funk cover band called The Factory, while the Farro brothers had practiced together after school. Paramore was officially formed in 2003. The band’s first song written together was Conspiracy, which was later used on their debut album.

John Janick, CEO and co-founder of the music label Fueled By Ramen, got a hold of Paramore’s demos and went to a Taste of Chaos performance in Orlando, Florida to see the band perform live. After a smaller private performance at a warehouse, the band was signed to the label in April 2005.

Paramore traveled back to Orlando to record their debut album All We Know Is Falling, which took three weeks to record. The album was released on July 26, 2005, which reached #19 on the Billboard Top Pop Catalog and #30 on the Billboard’s Heatseekers Chart. It was certified Gold in Austrailia, the UK and the USA. Pressure was released as their debut single on July 26th, the same day as the album, which failed to reach the main chart, but reached #62 on the US Billboard Hot Digital Songs. The second song from the album, Emergency, was released on October 16th 2005. The third and final single from All We Know Is Falling was All We Know and it was released February 21st 2006.

Paramore began recording their second album RIOT! in January 2007. Releasing the album on June 12, 2007, it entered the Billboard 200 at #20, peaking at #15, and sold 44,000 its first week in the United States. The album entered and peaked in the UK album chart at #24. It was certified Gold in Austrailia, Finland, Ireland, Japan, Mexico & New Zealand and Platinum in the UK and the USA. The first single from the album, released on June 21, 2007, was Misery Business. The song entered the US Billboard Hot 100 at #99, peaking at #26. It also peaked at #17 on the UK singles chart, making it their first charting single in the UK. The second single from the album, Hallelujah, was released on September 18th 2007 and peaked on the UK singles chart at #139. crushcrushcrush was the third track from RIOT!. It was released on November 21st 2007 in the US and late January ‘08 in the UK. It peaked at #4 on the US Billboard Hot Modern Rock Tracks, #4 in the Finnish charts, #54 on the Billboard Hot 100 and #61 on the UK singles chart. The fourth and final single from the album, That’s What You Get, was released on March 24th 2008. It peaked at #35 in New Zealand, #55 on the UK singles chart, #66 on the Billboard Hot 100 and #92 in Canada.

Paramore wrote two songs for the first movie in the Twilight series. The lead song from Twilight, Decode, was released by Paramore in mid-November in the US and mid-December in the UK. It peaked at #9 in Finland and #15 in New Zealand, their highest charting single there so far, #33 on the Billboard Hot 100 and #52 on the UK singles chart. The other song written for Twilight was called I Caught Myself.

Paramore’s third studio album, brand new eyes, was released on September 28th 2009. It has peaked at #1 in Austrailia, Ireland, New Zealand and the UK. It has also reached #2 in Brazil and the USA, making it their most successful album to date. It was so far been certified Gold in Austrailia, Brazil, Canada, Ireland, Japan, New Zealand, the UK and the USA. The first single, titled Ignorance, was released on July 7th 2009 for digital download and on September 14th 2009 in the UK. It has peaked at #1 on the UK Rock Chart, #14 in the UK singles chart, #35 in Austrailia, #67 on the Billboard Hot 100 and #96 in Canada. Brick by Boring Brick was the second single from the album, released November 23rd, 2009, and peaked at #2 on the UK Rock chart, #28 on the US Billboard Rock Songs, #29 in New Zealand and #85 in Austrailia. The third single is scheduled for release on April 19, 2010 and is titled The Only Exception.

best friend????

You take care of my life ,,
I already know the risks
You do not have to care,
this is my life
you are my friend, but you do not have to manage everything I do
you are pretending,banned all things a wanna do but in fact you actually do it
What kind of friend?
want to compete?
I want to buy this, you said I should not buy it, and ye turned out instead to buy also
very creative!
Can you appreciate my idea?
do not just imitate
i dont really care if u wanna copy my style,it is okay but admit it!
do not get comments,,

I was sick a long time, but I'm just quiet because I dont want have problems
well, IT'S O-KAY!!

ya,,i still

I will not feel hurt
I will not feel disappointed
Despite my love for you is unrequited perfectly
You do not need to feel love
You do not need to feel homesick
Let me live it
That's sincere
I would get hurt
And I'm prepared to be disappointed
I just wanted you to know
I never give up
Though should be destroyed and injured
I still love you
I will not feel resentment
I will not feel the hate
I was quite happy living this

twanks,,,

Last Day of Being A School Girl

yesterday is my graduation, last day at school, Wew,, goosebumps (hrhrh~), usually i dont like being at school, but at the last moment as the day, it's so sad, I am no longer of school girl anymore,, hmmm,,
ow yea,,interesting things that day was wearing kebaya and thick makeup .. I thought it disgusting, but funny, seeing friends' face,, like a...strange face with 'painting' on it,, hahah .. will definitely miss my last day.
i'll miss u all !!!

Love=Eat Shit

Too late to apologize,now he hates me,very..

I see his face in the photo
Tears streaming down my face
He looks at me,
His eyes behind the glasses
But he doesn't say anything
Yea,it just a photo
But it serves me well,enough

I still see my self in his eyes
But i know i'm getting old
Time goes by and nothing left to be mine
I just wait someone by my side
Who would be here when i close my life one night

I'm so tired of being a dumb girl
Look at the mirror with the wet face
Shout his name out without a voice
Just the scars that'll stay forever

Hey boy,,
Can you find the feeling?
Would you know the meaning?



-dini-